Jeremy's Story


have you ever had to look in the mirror an tell your self the truth and be scared to death that your just crazy ?

I have.

Have you ever cryed your eyes out over being gender idenitiy disorder?

I have.

It isnt always easy to wake up every day an know what im going through an keep carrying on in life !

Its hard to look in the mirror an tell myself the truth about what im feeling an what i know i am especialy since im trying the best i can to "come out" an say i think i might be a transexual .

I've always known I was born the wrong sex and in a way I know my mom knows too ! My mom use to ALWAYS tell me "Have you checked your underwear lately your a girl" And I HATED it when she said that stuff to me !

Im 17 years old an so far the out come of all this has been that I am homosexaul When I first started liking the same sex I remeber wanting to be thought of as a little boy .

Over an over again I've been told that "I'd grow out of all this" well I know I won't, because I've been going through all these feelings my whole life it feels like! And I BELIEVE I may be a guy in a girl's body . IT ISNT ALWAYS EASY TO DEAL WITH !!!

Because i was born female and there are times I think "what if I'm crazy" But I often talk to other transexuals and read other transexual stories and I've learned that a lot of people my age are dealing with this and going through the same problems and feelings I am going through! And I KNOW they ask themselves the same questions I ask myself "why me"

"Am I crazy?", "Why cant I be normal?" But then what is normal..?

And in a way we all know were not crazy ! This is just one more thing about us that makes us who we are ! And we aren't an "it" or a "he-she"

We're all HUMAN BEINGS!!

Written by Brandy better known as Jeremy




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